Pulling the Plug

This was a tough post to put together, I spent a couple days debating on how I wanted to move forward. In the end, I want to pull the plug on the aim training trial. This experiment was supposed to be a fun series of posts, but instead I ultimately used it as an excuse to justify a bad habit of addiction.

Slippery Slope

Over the past couple of months, I’ve slowly been giving more of my time and attention to the game I’ve mentioned in several past posts, Destiny 2. It’s a fun game that offers a great experience, and even some great cooperative challenges with friends.

Video games aren’t inherently bad, but I’ve been pouring far too much of my time into Destiny. In a year that offers an existential crisis every other week, it’s been nice to have a simple straight forward set of tasks and distractions. They range from relaxing busy work to narrative stories that expand the lore. Some missions even require working with friends to overcome big challenges.

The biggest thing that is pressuring me to keep playing is time pressure to complete certain content before it’s “vaulted” in November. This pressure has me rushing through as much as I can before it’s gone.

Focusing Forward

The challenge I had this week was to decide if I wanted to continue the trial of aim training. I felt it was a bit too much of a distraction at this time. It was something I’d been using as an excuse to feel productive before hours of play. In the end, I really wasn’t getting anything I thought “mattered” done. While the practice was nice, and I feel I’ve gotten better, in the end, I just feel it needs to be put to rest with my bad gaming habit.

I’d been having moments of clarity every so often that I needed to step back and focus on what I truly felt was important, but was comfortable in the ease of the game. I hope that sharing this problem here will help push me in the direction I know I want to go, towards my goals.

I want to take a step back and focus on the goals I set all the way back in January. While this year wasn’t quite what I expected, I can still make progress towards those goals. The next few posts will be discussing what I did to get back on track and how I changed my expectations now that it’s October.